Friday, February 09, 2007
Thought for the day....
Or does it?
And do we really want it to?
Okay, enough philosophical thought, it's not good for me.
Except.... I got to thinking, after going through 18 months when we've been screwed in separate instances by both our lawyer and accountant (or should I say ex-lawyer and ex-accountant), and consoling myself with the view that 'what goes around comes around', do I really believe that and what exactly do I want to happen?
If the saying is true, then I don't think you can be discerning when it comes to specifying what 'comes around'. As much as I feel nothing but bad thoughts for our ex-accountant, I wouldn't want anything bad to happen to him and his family - like serious illness. So, what do I want to happen??? A bit of financial hardship, maybe.... losing his clients..... but then that impacts on his family.... see what I mean?
Then, of course, there is the nagging thought at the back of my mind... what did we do that meant things like this 'came around' to us? Well, I can't think of anything....
So.... what do you think? Truth in the saying, or something we say to make ourselves feel better?
And while we're on deep thinking..... I have a theory about glass half full/empty and trust... but I'll save that for another post... I need to lie down in a darkened room and allow my intellect to recover from over exertion.
As a Buddhist, I tend to believe life is cyclical. But I am wise enough to know that I may not live to see the justice. Or that it may not be visible. I am a person at peace with the world and who I am. I completely adore my children and my life. What goes around may well be not financial ruin but an unrest and bankruptcy of the soul.
I also don't "wish" for what goes around . . . I just know it "is" part of the journey for us all.
And ultimately, I guess, I stopped needing to see the results of karmic comeuppance and came to be at peace with where I am as a human being--and leave the bastard ex-lawyers and so-and-so's to their empty lives. It is enough that I "am" and that I am where I am. There is great joy in that.